Eastbound on 70

This is a song.

The miles drag on and on – guilty conscience doesn’t help much
I won’t sleep ‘til dawn – or ‘til the pavement has been broken
~And the bullets hit the windshield
Though they clatter to the ground the wheels take them ‘round and ‘round
When the bullets hit the windshield
They penetrate my heart – I have brought them whence I left them

I say you can’t read my mind unless you know my apologies
By name {I could have written you a list of things I swore I would never do}
By name {my mind is closed door save for the demons unlocking to torment me more}
Counting deeds and weighing words {I’ll never get out alive}
My current state {a blood list of my sins}
Now torn away {follows me, owns me reveals}
Reveals a terrified man; running again

~And the bullets hit the windshield
Though they clatter to the ground the wheels take them ‘round and ‘round
When the bullets hit the windshield
They penetrate my heart – I have brought them whence I left them

You found me out – I swear I will return soon
You may own me now but – Eastbound on 70
I may return as something new – westbound; inbound
Sweet Aurora, Pandora doesn’t live here anymore

God save my soul.
I think I relinquished it back there
God save my soul.
Unweave the chords I sworn I’d never woven before

I Thought I Was Stronger Now

Friday, June 8^th, 2007

I Thought I Was Stronger Now

Is strength in the weakness?

Letting down your guard

Living out emotions

As they are tearing you apart

There is strength in mercy towards your

Enemy

Bleeding yourself to make them complete

You can't ignore them when they weep

Memories are not admitting defeat

And love—

Even when two weeks late

Is the love you have given instead of
Hate

Don't withhold justice. But.

Never abandon the broken

For a promise, even if broken

By one

Continues with the other—

Nothing else can be done

Untitled Poem {Silent Plea}

This is my desperate cry for help
Save me, save me,
Because I can't save myself

And this is my very last cry for help
Hear me, hear me,
There is no one else.
{I can't hear myself}

I'm out of time, I'm out of blood
I've drained my resources

I've searched up and down the streets for my counterfeit recourses

I'm silent in my composure
I'm saving up for my disposal

I won't send for the comfort I need
{Why won't they come to me?}
I know they won't set me free

But I'll give in if they want to see
{Why don't they ask me?}

This is when I need you
And this is when you can't hear me
Because this is when I won't ask

I've tasted this cup, and it's not bitter, but sweet
Deception is always sweet
And now, when I drink you won't hear me scream

Because this
This

This is my silent plea

Rather Untitled...

V1::
Rainclouds have come today
Oh, please don't go away
Rain drops, keep falling down
So my tears won't show, when they hit the ground
I'm crying again
I thought I was stronger now
I'm trying to find
A cure for my emotions
I cherished the sight: a glimmer of hope
In your eyes—they're so lost
And now I'm sharing in your torment


Here my cry
I've changed my melody
I'm no longer lost
And the past is behind me

Chorus:
{Your tears are in my eyes
And your cuts scar my wrists
Your pain is in my heart
I'm torn between hope and grief
I'll always stand beside you
Will you take what hope is mine—
Make it yours
When will you take what hope is mine, (and) make it yours?}


V2::
Something's wrong or not the same
Winds of change have touched your face
How can, I let you know
How your wounded soul, wounds my own
And there's no more denying
You pain and confusion
It's gazing through your eyes
And declaring war on your heart
I feel, your despair
Do you know this affects me?
Could I do the same—
And give you some of my peace

{Chorus}


Bridge::
This is me mourning a past I can't change
This is me mourning a friend lost and gained
Emotions that are not mine
Dare to consume my mind
The gnawing that lurks inside
Is evading the grasp of my mind